Happy Day

I am happy... yes happy. Don't stop reading just yet, I know how all you blogger readers love the suicidal/prozac can't go on style posts..however right now that is not me. Now it may have something to do with the bottle of red I've precariously consumed this evening but that's ok cause let's face it drunk posts are nothing new in this blogosphere.

Maybe today I am choosing to see the positive instead of the negative, I must say there is much to be said for this way of thinking, it is absolutely smashing!!! Yes I did just say smashing and I would indeed use such words in a conversation were you to have a conversation with me after 1-2 bottles of said red wine. If you have never had the pleasure if being inebriated in my company I must recommend it, I AM HILARIOUS!!

I'm still working on my masterpiece. It's really late and I've just finished watching cider house rules on tv, it was a good movie. I case you hadn't heard I'm speedily approaching the 25 year mark as of last monday.. what a birthday that will be. Crazy... to be honest I'm extremely excited that I've lasted this long, making it through my teens.... wow.. what can I say?? I'm very glad to be where I am right now, I feel absurdly optimistic like things are only ever going to get better from here on. Mabe they will or not, but this is a great way of thinking. I think I'm understanding the whole alcoholic thing right at this moment.. Like hell yeah I get why you would want to be this optimistic all the time, who wouldn't?

But it's not real, it's the wine talking. In case you didn't know I'm self employed. Anyone else out there self-employed?? CORRECTION... Anyone else out there successfully self-employed?? cause I would love to hear how you stay motivated to keep working. I know that might sound dumb, but when no one is up your ass to get things done, sometimes they just don't get done... y'know??

P.S. I say NICE way too much... if you know me and I say it... please stop me. k, thanks