Happy Day

I am happy... yes happy. Don't stop reading just yet, I know how all you blogger readers love the suicidal/prozac can't go on style posts..however right now that is not me. Now it may have something to do with the bottle of red I've precariously consumed this evening but that's ok cause let's face it drunk posts are nothing new in this blogosphere.

Maybe today I am choosing to see the positive instead of the negative, I must say there is much to be said for this way of thinking, it is absolutely smashing!!! Yes I did just say smashing and I would indeed use such words in a conversation were you to have a conversation with me after 1-2 bottles of said red wine. If you have never had the pleasure if being inebriated in my company I must recommend it, I AM HILARIOUS!!

I'm still working on my masterpiece. It's really late and I've just finished watching cider house rules on tv, it was a good movie. I case you hadn't heard I'm speedily approaching the 25 year mark as of last monday.. what a birthday that will be. Crazy... to be honest I'm extremely excited that I've lasted this long, making it through my teens.... wow.. what can I say?? I'm very glad to be where I am right now, I feel absurdly optimistic like things are only ever going to get better from here on. Mabe they will or not, but this is a great way of thinking. I think I'm understanding the whole alcoholic thing right at this moment.. Like hell yeah I get why you would want to be this optimistic all the time, who wouldn't?

But it's not real, it's the wine talking. In case you didn't know I'm self employed. Anyone else out there self-employed?? CORRECTION... Anyone else out there successfully self-employed?? cause I would love to hear how you stay motivated to keep working. I know that might sound dumb, but when no one is up your ass to get things done, sometimes they just don't get done... y'know??

P.S. I say NICE way too much... if you know me and I say it... please stop me. k, thanks

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Happy Birthday to Me!

Yep, today was my birthday and I am happy to report it was great. I got new acrlic paints and some canvas. I started a black and white painting that may or may not morph into a color painting. I'll keep you posted.

oh my

I am soo not here right now. Have been working 12 hour days with 1 hour drive each way. Tonight dave was asking me about something and I took it way personally and then concluded the evening with an oscar style sob fest. Oh my god I suck. I thought wailyn was dying tonight cause he was doing this convulsing hiccup thing. My birthday is coming up soon and that's always a bad day for me. I don't know why but somehow on my birthday I always end up crying. I just saw a body break commercial, don't those freaks age?

Blog Fashion

I updated my blog look because it was looking to old. I understand why people who update their blogs all the time like to change things up once and awhile.

If anyone knows how to center the name on my profile, that would be great.

So far this summer I have had a bon fire and been to the park, tomorrow we are going to the beach.

Sleep is my therapy

I've been finding myself sleeping about 10 hours a day lately. While that is not a phenomenal amount, the fact that I would like to sleep even more is a bit of a pickle. That's really all I want to do, especially in the mornings. How do you get that enthusiams to want to get out of bed? Is it because my life is not very exciting at the moment? I don't think I can rememeber the last time I really wanted to get out of bed. Maybe I should make an appointment for first thing in the morning, the only problem is what do you want to do everyday that won't get boring very quickly? I think I need more organization in my life, but when the choice is : get up and organize your life or stay in bed and sleep until you absolutely MUST get up... well I don't know about you but for me the choice is clear... Maybe I'm just a exceptional underacheiver.

The speed of light

Summer is in full swing, the sun has been beautiful and the humidity tolerable. I have only just begun to realize that summer has arrived when suddenly, I realize it is getting dark earlier. That which has just arrived has already started to leave.

All too soon the harvest festivals will begin and soon to follow the pumpkins, goblins and witches. Before the brooms have dissapeared in the moonlight, retailers will be hauling out the reindeer and elves. By then 2007 is just around the corner..

Will I have any accomplishments to show for these 365 days?? Any goals set in January 2006 have been long forgoten. Should I stop worrying where I am going and start trying to just enjoy the journey? Or is that just what lazy people say to avoid the guilt of standing still forever???

Martini me up

I've started to write this post way toooo many times. The highlight of my trip to Ontario was my first martini, and then my second. Followed by many more various drinks and a very long walk home. It was my last night in Niagara Falls and it was perfect.

This is Kelso

I'm scared of the movie "the hills have eyes". I've been afraid of it ever since I heard the title, now dave is watching it and I'm trying not too look. I was finally able to get into the bottle of merlot that peter gave me a few months ago. It was home made so I had to let it set for awhile, it's really good.

I met a psychic named Karen and she did my spirit totem for me. It's like a bunch of animals that are supposed to represent who you are. My mane animal is the Butterfly which represents change and transformation. It was really very interesting, but that's all I have to say about it for now.

HAHA ME

You can tell that I am drunk cause I am using larger fonts... kind of a substitute for talking louder

How many faces do you have?

What is it with guys that I used to be really good friends with, suddenly pretending that they don't know me when I see them with their girlfriends. I'm not even talking about old boyfriends, just friends I haven't seen in awhile. 2 times this has happened, with 2 different old friends!

I think I might be a little bit drumk. I drank the rest of the red wine that was left over from our business trip. This is wierd for me cause my boyfriend has quit drinking, about a year ago... well not quite. Even though I'm not supposed to not drink cause he doesn't drink... I usually don't cause I'm just sitting home, and then I'd be sitting home getting drunk by myself, which to me is a little lonely.

But tonight here I am, I'm in training for this weekend. I am going to Niagara Falls to a Stag and Doe. I am very excited as I haven't seen these people in like years! and I am going to a psychic. I will let yall know how that goes. Ha ha yall. I was working at a trade fair thingy and this guy was from texas in the booth next to me. He said it all the time and throughout the say I would find myself talking in this wierd accent to customers. He was so nice.

I am such a travel whore lately. I'm just gotten back from a 5 day business trip and now I am jetting off to visit friends for 6 days! Dave and I have actually never been on a plane together. We are (hopefully) going back to Niagara Falls in november, although we will prolly drive. I'm so happy, I love to travel! Oh crap, that probably means I'm not going to get any comments right cause NOBODY LIKES A HAPPY BLOGGER!!!

Oh, I've moved on to whisky actually it's a whiskey / club soda / cranberry mix. I just know if I was sober I would not drink it cause I'm sure it tastes gross, but right now....not so bad. It's going quite well with the Garden vegetable Breton crackers.

I.... by the way, am a secret drunk. When I actually do get drunk you can't really tell ( or so I've been told ) unless you are my friend and if you are my friend when I am drunk ( and you may actually be a complete stranger, but in my secret drunken state I feel you are my friend.) I will tell you just how drunk I am and we will laugh at those drunken things and at people who aren't drunk... it's great...

THIS IS MY 40th POST! and my first drunk post.

Don't cry....you pansy

So I'm leaving in the morning, my trip will be sans air conditioning and shocks.. Oh well. Don't miss me too much... yes you the 7 people who actually read this thing.

Check out her lewdness and her awesome blog rant. I though it was brilliant.

I'm going to Niagara Falls next week and my friend Nick got me this appointment with her psychic. I've had this unofficial no psychic policy up until now. I really don't know what made me change my mind.

I will be sans internet for the next 5 days. I really think I need to get a laptop..

see you on monday, unless I can find an internet cafe or library..

Breath....Oh fuck I need a brown bag

I am freaking out.. about 35% of my product has been held up at the border. I'm gonna lose it. Oh crap.

Well there is a plan B. It is a sucky shitty only if I absolutely MUST go there plan B, but it exists. I came up with it on the way home from work. Just after the reality of my situation, that 1/3 of my product may not arrive on time to make the truck, really kicked in. Ahhh...

Well I'm going to bed

Go go go .. why aren't you moving yet???

So like I said, we live in the woods right? Everynight many fireflies come up to our windows and do their little light thingy. At night there are no other lights around, so I'm thinking that maybe they think our house is the giant mother firefly...

They have landed...

The fucking tourists are here. They all swarm in on the same weekend and stay until labour day weekend. I love them for their money and hate them for the fact that they drive, they drive on the same roads I do. Tourist should have their own lane, it should be painted orange and could also sub as the breakdown lane cause that's just how slow they go.

Dave is thinking about getting his pilots licencse, so on Fri we went to the flight school and he got to fly a plane! The plane was OLD and about the size of a chevette.

The vodka years

So I moved out on my own when I was 15. Actually it wasn't really on my own, it was like this communal drunkard house where I got to drink and smoke and babysit these kids. It was really a sweet deal. Crazy times, lots of parties and odd shit.

So now I'm 23 and I feel old. Like insane old. I live in the country with all my pets and boyfriend. I never go out anymore. I kind of abandoned my party friends when I met my boyfriend, cause I didn't want him to know how crazy we were. In hindsight that was completely dumb cause he wouldn't have cared. Some of them weren't good people though, like people who completly lie to you for 3 years and then they are just like, yeah well.

I'm going to visit friends in niagara next month and I think it will be a lot of fun. Lately my idea of fun is movie night at home. The thing is, it's been a long time since I had that kind of fun and I'm paranoid as to how I will react and interact with lots of different people. I'm looking forward to it though, so I guess that is a good sign.

Isn't it funny how you can spin into this dating vortex when you first hook-up with someone. You don't talk to anybody else, except maybe your "couple friends". Couple friends usually suck anyways cause it's always one persons good friend and then the other person is stuck with their g-friend/b-friend, y'now? Really good couple friends are very hard to find, how often are you ever in a group of 4 people where you actually like everyone? me not so much, but maybe I'm just a bitch.

So much to do

Today was a crazy day! I am getting ready to orchestrate 3 retail stores operating at the same time... It's gonna be wild ( oh did I mention I only have 4 staff... yeah) So I'm running around today like a mad-woman and I get to the copy center. I'm next in line behind this lady that was just finishing up with her order. So the guy tells her to come back in however long, she turns around people... and get this, looks right at me and decides to order a stamp. I think she just felt all powerful, making the now 2 of us, wait until she was done. Luckily I wasn't late for anything or else I would have been full on foot stompin, key jingling crusty. It took another 10 minutes, and you could tell she really didn't need the stamp cause she didn't care what size or color it was.blah..

So then it's my turn right, I'm not upset or anything ( cause I'm not yet late) and I inquire about getting a stamp myself. That crummy lady took the last one!



I planted flowers on the weekend and some of them are up already! It was really exciting, cause I never plant anything.

Floyd has a lump on his belly, so I am taking him to the vet tomorrow. He also has all these really bad bug bites and I'm worried some of them are infected. Poor Floyd he has no hair on his belly and the bugs just eat him up! I'm also taking Wailyn in for his 1 month re-test on his kidneys. We will find out if he is getting better or worse on the new food.

We've got Satellite, Temporarily

I wrote this last night and forgot to post:

There is re-inactment show on, one of those commentary things. These 4 people are talking about running into a storm on their sail boat. I was just starting to get really into it when I realized, hello they are doing the commentary, they didn't die.... Dumbass show. Even still, the people really thought they were going to die. Well actually I think one of them did die cause she is not in the commentary...Maybe I should watch it.

It's all your fault

I remember being in kindergarten and they had a special "career" day. They brought everyone these paper hats, there was a nurses cap and a firefighter. I remember wanting a firefighter one, but they only brought enough of those for the boys and so I had to take a nurses hat. Way to stunt my firefighter career ambitions people! I remeber that I was really quiet when I was that little and never said anything much, but that it REALLY bothered me for like the whole weekend. Why should the girls have to be nurses and the boys firefighters. I think there was a boy there who wanted the nurses hat but his mom maybe talked him out of that. I bet it bothered him too.

There is a Firefly at my window

Dave's watching the hockey game, I'm sort of watching it too. I'm trying to figure out what makes a blog good. Unpredictability? Honesty? Nudity? Probably a little bit of each. Today it was really warm and windy here.

I am going to Niagara Falls... It's been over 5 years since I've visited. My friend Nick is getting married in November and I get to be in the wedding!

I hate this font, maybe this one is better, no maybe this one or the lucinda one.. Trebuchet anyone? Yes that will work fine for now.

I am traveling soon!! Not for the wedding, not yet, but for the stag and doe. Basically just a big party I think. I'm so taking my camera, then maybe I can provide you bloggereaders with some people pictures. It will just be great to see different things, go to a different gas station, super market, liquor store.


Carolina is up 2 /nothing in the 2nd period. Dave is not impressed, he's starting to yell at the TV, it's funny to listen to. Oh my god, the Oilers have a 2-man advantage, Dave' is yelling and he's almost off the couch.

Last week I went to the library. I'm one of those people who leaves everything to the last second then I shift into super jenny mode and get a whole lot accomplished in a very short period of time. To do this I have to meticulously plan every 5 minutes. I had allocated 10 minutes to go to the library and pick up the book that they were holding for me. It was 4:52 and I was walking up to the door and it was locked... I completely lost it.

I had practicably run from the bank to get here on time because it took longer that expected at the bank, and the fucking door was locked. I was MAD, People with real jobs have to work later than 5 sometimes people, even on a Friday... I am going to write a letter, or send an e-mail.

3 apples and a kiwi

I was actually trying to change my diet/excercise habits a month ago and things were going really well. Then we had company come and stay from away and she brought tonnes of junk food. When we went grocery shopping she bought even more... Now I'm not the type of person who can have something in the house I want and not eat it. I might be able to dissuade myself from driving to the store and forking over the cash, but if it's in the house the battle is LOST.

I wish a may I wish I might.. yeah I don't remember the rest.

Life has been very quick lately. I'm starting to get used to the pace. Had a BBQ today and it was super windy.

I really want to get a laptop with wireless internet. I am completly useless about how much ram/rom/rim rahhhlllaaa all that stuff. What I would really like is a list of pros and cons on the subject laptop vs computer.

I keep writing paragraphs and deleting them. I don't know why. I'm going to bed

My life

I am not a yard sale type. I learned this at 9am this morning. The only thing that I do enjoy is watching the people, they get so excited!

Tomorrow is Fathers day and we are having a picnic/bbq

Here's the thing people. The busier I am, the more I actually get accomplished. I gues it's cause I'm not always saying to myself.." I'll do it tonight, tomorrow, later..." When tonight and tomorrow are already booked I can really get my ass in gear.

I'm officially on a diet as of this morning. No, it's not a diet, it's a lifestyle adjustment and it is for health reasons. Last night I was reasearching type 2 diabetes and I'm soooo almost there baby. Say bye bye to the sugar.....